Heartbroken, as I had to take the hardest decision last Friday night to be put to sleep my lovely, beloved angel 14+ years old blond Lab, Nikie. Not that she was in a perfect health because she was diabetic and I've treated her for the past 5 years and also despite her age, but it's still very shocking and we are never ever prepared to take that painful decision. "Playing God" is not my thing. Although I know I did the "right thing" because she was rushed to a pet hospital and she wasn't responding to any medication....I still feel so horrible! They said that the blood tests were clear, but that she might have a pneumonia and that they saw something on her liver, unclear what it was. None of the tests were conclusive, and giving her stronger medications would interfered with the diabetes. The most devastating decision one has to make when comes that moment. "Euthanasia" is the worse word in my vocabulary, and Friday night when they asked what was my decision...I couldn't even get "that word" out of my mouth, they had to ask me three times... even though I knew there was no other options, I guess I still was hoping for a miracle to happen. If you have furry children, you certainly know what I mean. I really hope that they have the capacity to understand that we take that awful decision to free them from suffering. And how much we love them. The only positive thing about this is that she left so peacefully and I had the chance to say goodbye...I will miss her enormously............
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